Stephanie Drake

I didn't get AD.
And I'm literally heart broken.

He's gone. I had to say goodbye last night not knowing when the next hello would be. He doesn't have his car because it needs a new axyl...or whatever. Meaning he can't come down anymore for a while.

This hurts.

I hate saying goodbye.

But then I guess I'm lucky to have someone who it's so hard to say goodbye to...

I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW THAT KRISTIN MARLOW IS AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL AND MY FREAKING AMAZINGLY WONDERFUL FRIEND AND I LOVE HER.

Kristin. What you did today has already helped me so much.

And your prayers. AMAZING.


I'm so overwhelmed with peace.

In the center of chaos God brings us a sunset to remind us there will always be a tomorrow.

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like
A thousand diamonds strewn
Across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend I am weightless
And in this moment
I am happy happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles
A backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment
I am happy happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

The world's a rollercoaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
My hands are busy in the air
Saying

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

Someone explain to me...

I've changed?

Apparantly. 

I'm so confused lately.

A. I miss my friends. (Rachel Lee especially).
B. I miss J-Walk.
C. I miss my old life.

I must say.

I love Kristin Marlow. 

And you praying for me last night is what's been keeping me going these last two days.

Mitchell passed away a year ago today.

I love ya kid. Wherever you are.

Ok. I officially hate my job.

My life is perfect. 

My friends are perfect. 
My family is perfect.
My boyfriend is perfect. 

Everything is incredible right now. I have everything I could EVER ask for...

A job. A family. Friends who are so incredible that I never knew such amazing people existed. I have love and am in love with a boy so amazing that it would be impossible to dream of someone better. 

My faith is amazing and it's enriched my life to a phenomenal point. Without Christ in my life...it's chaotic. I have my ups and downs, sure...

But when it comes down to it...

I'm always going to have the things and the people that are important to me in my life...

And nothing...

Not death. Not argumentation...

Nothing. Can take the people I love away from me. 

They'll always be in my heart. And I'll forever love them. 

I'm in an incredible mood. 

My life is perfect. And nothing could possibly take it from me.

My ankles are sore. My legs are throbbing. My hands have muscle strain. And I haven't had a social life or slept since Thursday. 


All signs point to...



Me working.



I love it 


I love the people I work with and while my hours next week (6:30AM-12PM) suck...it's worth it because well....

I'm getting paid. 

And getting work experience so that when I apply at C28 for a third time...maybe I'll have a better shot. 


Ha. Yeah. I am DETERMINED to work there. I mean...after a certain point there'd be no point to working there any more. But while I'm young and in school...it's my goal. 

I need to find a job that'll be flexible with my worshiping schedule. (ie. Saturdays and Thursdays) because Melt keeps scheduling me for Sat...when I have church...and Thursdays....when I have church. So...I'm going to request those days off (because I get 2 days a week off)...and see if they'll give them to me. 

It'd be fun. 

Wee. 

But yeah. I'm happy. 

Oh. And Kennedy=love. 

Today he's putting a down payment on this INCREDIBLE ring. It's white gold. It has a heart shape in my birth stone (the light green kind) and it has two diamonds on either side of the heart. I was having a bad day Saturday and he had told me Friday that he was buying me something special. So he took me into the store on Sat to see it. Oh boy...it made my heart melt. 

And Rachel. Is cool. We spent a lot of Thursday night talking. It was nice. I like hanging out with her. Because we dress geisha. And we are cooler than you. Best friends=happiness.

And Cala. She's the best co-worker I could ask for. 

Life=good. 

Eternal life=better. 

:)

Work is awesome.

But if Cala didn't work with me I'd die. 

I <3 you Calove. 

My co-workers are realllllllllllllllly nice though and my manager rocks. My boss is a sweet man. And my owner...he's cool. 

I get to answer the phone...work register...make stuff...and serve it too. I do it all.

I don't like doing this dishes though.

And that 3 days next week I work 6:30AM-12PM. 

Woot. 

But work is good. 

I actually started Thursday. Woot.

Tomorrow is my first day at work.

4PM.

Woot.

Elise Gomez is a LIFE SAVER!

I hope you know what you said to me was hurtful. 

Because you have NO idea how much I really care about my friends. How they mean everything in the world and nothing else could ever come first. 

Because yes...I spend the two days a week that Kennedy has off work with him. Because he doesn't have any other time. 

But you know what else?

I see my friends much more. And I'm glad I do. If you didn't notice my posts from earlier in July...where I was heartbroken because I felt my friends drifting...you'd be abliged to take a look...

Maybe then you can see...

That I was hurt...because I felt like it was you I was losing.

Don't stand there and tell me and tell my other friends that I put my boyfriend before my friends because you know that's not true.

How many times this summer have you contacted me?

Guess what...I've called you a lot...I've wanted to hang out. But the phone works both ways. 

Thanks for making my birthday a pleasant event.

 

-This isn't aimed at one person...but a group. The thing is...when you say things...it gets back to me. And I know who's said what and whom they've said it to. All of you who have said something...I know. So you may as well just say it to me instead of making assumptions and judging my priorities behind my back.

You guys mean EVERYTHING to me.

 

And I can't tell you how hurt I am...

 

That you would even question that.

 

Yeah. Happy birthday to me.

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It made me happy. 

A Christian man told me I was going to hell, though. Because I was going to street scene...

Funny. 

Music=Amazing.

Moshing=Pain+FREAKING AWESOME!

Oh man. 

It was fun. 

I want to go again.

I'll remember every moment of that day forever.

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Movie tonight. I went with Darrel and Lauren Perkins. 

We yelled random things and it echoed. 

"My uterus is on fire"

=)

I love my friends. 

And AJ Porter is a life saver.